Tuesday, November 3, 2015
He still goes over to his house,
sits in his room,
says a lifetime of goodbyes to ashes
when the oxygen of hope thins,
choked out by the rasping fire-of-lies
believed at just-turned twenty.
Remembering often in stories,
as the living do
of the dead--
And when reads to me what he writes,
how it is to lose a brother,
memorializing what was,
he ends it
the only way he can.
You don’t know what you’ve done to me.
© 2015 Jennifer Wagner
At the end of August my son's best friend since he was 11 years old committed suicide at the age of 20. A crater-sized hole has been created, and though I know it is a pain that will remain for the rest of his life, I pray for it to lessen for him and for all those who loved Baily. He is greatly missed.